there is always a wild side to an innocent face

i seriously would like to know.

why u keep playing games like i thought  you were out of high school already.

if your dating someone else. why do u keep bothering me. why do u stop me every time i try to move on. why the  thought of me being with someone else bothers you. why? if you’re with someone else already why can’t i ? 

tell me something does your bf know about the late night calls the texts you send me and how you say you say you don’t see yourself with him… i bet not.

and the funny thing is that in front of your friends you make it seem like I’m the one who’s doing all of this when in reality is all you. yes i do care and yes i do love you but man enough is enough. but then again is all my fault for letting you keep doing this to me.

so you can save any other of your lil lines you have to say to me cus I’m not going to be here anymore to listen to em. have a good one.

i never thought..

i’d be in this position again.  i never expected this from you. honestly not from you.

it really breaks my heart how things ended after a year and  6 months. almost two.

i feel like you never took this relationship seriously. & if you did. you got too confront able  and thought id stay no matter. i mean don’t get me wrong i did stay and let you back into my life twice. 

but as much as i wanted to be that guy to help you. to be there for you through your ups and down. you didn’t let me yes i mean you did. but how things ended and the way your being i feel like you don’t appreciate any of it. you don’t appreciate everything i’ve done for you. i feel like the life style you want to live is not going to be that way for ever. sooner or later your friends will grow & mature and your gonna get stuck where you are… all i want from you is to make you see how you take things not seriously. yes life its about living it up. but also about getting yourself up for the future and i wanted to be that guy to help you get back on track.. but you never let me. we would talk about it and you would thank me because then you’d realize how much I’ve been there for you but then that was just it. it was all talk but not action. i mean sometimes you would show it.  but let me also tell you. you were amazing for the past year and six months i have learned a lot from you. you did made me happy and I’ve learned not to be afraid and to just go with it. you made me laugh you made me cry you literally became my best friend. but life is not just about fun and games it is also about getting yourself together which is why i always thought we were good for each other because in that part i felt i could help you. i felt like we could balance each other out. but you never let me..

it really breaks my heart the way your being now. because a person that truly loves & cares about you. puts up with everything and has gone with you through thick and thin.

i feel like you put up a show for your friends to make them think your not hurt or sad but thats not good because i know you deep down inside..

its sad how many memories you have given me, and its so hard to erase each one of them. i feel like this break up has never felt more real than the ones before… 

idk why its so hard for you to express your feelings. you do so when drunk. and i hate that.

its deff going to take time to erase you out of my head and heart but I’m willing to do it. after everything you put me through, of not being appreciate it and disrespected i just can’t take it anymore. it truly breaks my heart to see you act this way.

i hope  one day you realize everything. and when you do. i hope is not too late…

this.

song is stuck in my head therefore. is on repeattttt.💙